...I know my answer would never be yes

P/s: I wrote this in 2012 or 2013? However I moved it to my drafts. Only to realize that this writing is a good reminder for myself. Thus Im reposting it. 

Assalamualaikum wbt.

These days Ive been told with the news of my friends' beloved dads passing away. Al-Fatihah.

I didnt inform my Mum or any other family members but these friends of mine are good friends of mine. I mean yeah we were not really close but we once were either classmates or used to hang out together.

I made a lot of friends. I dont know if I have ever been a good one but these people are totally great friends of mine. I love the ukhuwah that we built for the pass few years that we have known each of us from high school. And the story of their family member leaving this world, somehow cant stop me from being sad. Although the level of our friendship isnt that strong but as we became friends, the ukhuwah we built exist. And the feeling of sadness somehow hit me as how it hit them, (just a little less pain compared to theirs.)

                                                       

Talking about leaving this world. I have always told myself that I should get ready. But what have I been doing exactly? I'm not sure. I don't know. I cant simply blame the surrounding or busy life that I have been facing. Im the one who chose it.

And by this time, with little tears in my eyes. I would want to remind myself, to realize that death waits for no one. Yes these friends of mine might lost their family member, leaving them. I might lose someone too one day. And people might lose me, someday.

It will eventually happen. The thing is, are we ready?

I know my answer would never be yes....

The Almighty says, "When their specified time arrives, they cannot delay it for a single hour nor can they bring it forward," (16:61)

Love,

@Farzanaley

Fartvxqhlovate.

Fareyfar.

Keimanan Para Sahabat #1: Usman bin Maz’un

Assalamualaikum and hello everyone.

These past few days banyak menonton video video tazkirah. Kemudian rasa rugi kalau tak kongsi sebab bila kita berkongsi, lebih banyak yang kita ingat kan. Maka baik lah sekiranya aku tulis dan mungkin ada la secebis pahala untuk aku. Hihi.

Kalau hampa bukan jenis yang suka membaca, ketahuilah bahawa content yang aku dapat ni daripada video Ustaz Wadi Anuar. Mudah difahami, jelas dan inshaAllah sohih.

Dalam bentuk penulisan; aku kongsi serba sedikit nota yang aku dah catit bila dengar tazkirah beliau.

Kisah keimanan para sahabat yang diuji pada zaman awal baginda Rasulullah SAW menyebarkan dakwah di Mekah.

Usman b. Ma’zun

• Merupakan saudara susuan Nabi
• Mendapat keistimewaanà perlindungan yang diiktiraf daripada Menteri Kanan Quraisy pada zaman tersebut – Al-Walid bin Mughirah (sahabat baik kepada Usman; juga merupakan bapa kepada Khalid al-Walid)
• Disebabkan perlindungan tersebut makanya polis atau mana-mana kuasa tak boleh tangkap atau apa-apakan beliau
• Apabila Usman memeluk Islam, para kafir Quraisy marah dan mereka pun berjumpa dengan Al-Walid. Mereka gesa beliau untuk menarik balik keistimewaan perlindungan tersebut.
• Al-Walid pun memanggil Usman bin Maz’un untuk berjumpa. Dia kata supaya berhentilah beribadat, kalau tak dia akan tarik balik keistimewaan perlindungan yang dia beri kepada sahabatnya itu.
• Bila dengar member dia cakap macamtu, Usman terus bertegas dan cakap supaya ditarik semula perlindungan tersebut. Sebab dia tak takut pun.

PENGAJARAN

Perkongsian aku ni macam simplified version hehe. Tapi yang penting mesej sampai. 

Untuk aku, pengajaran yang aku dapat ialah betapa hebatnya para sahabat yang sanggup tolak apa-apa keistimewaan pun, walaupun depa tau akan membawa risiko kepada hidup depa.

Zaman dulu bukan lekeh-lekeh ya kena siksa.

Kita yang diberi pelbagai keistimewaan hidup aman, tiada sebarang ancaman pun kadang-kadang masih liat nak beribadah. Hmmmm.

Harap mengetuk pintu hati jiwa raga kita. Moga kita terus berpesan-pesan untuk melakukan kebaikan.

Thanks for reading!

Love,

Farzanaley
Farzana Rosley

The interview.

Assalamualaikum.

So today I went to my previous school, SMKA Al-Irshad. I went there for one reason - to interview my English teacher, Madam Zaiton. She had taught me English since form4. However, she knew about me and my friends since form 1 or form 2 cuz we're awesome liddat hahaha. *of course, the record. we were kinda.....famous hahaha. But no harm, sebenarnya we were just being cheeky. There were only some teachers yg didnt really understand teens like us hahaha.

Okay. After melawat, I actually realised that I do, really, miss my schoolhood so much :') I know my foundation year is doing good but I cant help loving my past life - in Irshad :)

Alhamdulillah, I guess I was lucky enough to be part of Irshadian :)

Idk what's wrong w/ my lappy but I cant upload any pictureeeee >.< Penat je aku bukak nak update chaittt.

Hokay, this is the Quote of The Day, (picture edited by me). Exo Kris. :)

Love,
Farzanarosley.
Fartvxqhlovate.
Fareyfar.

Bersahabatlah kerana Allah.

Assalamualaikum w.b.t.

I'm doing good. Busy, err kinda.

This week, hmmm masalah ukhuwah melanda.
I feel bad.
Kadang-kadang terfikir pulak, do we had a great feeling in being friends for fun?
For study matter?
or for the right one, Allah?

Bila dilanda ujian, masing-masing menangis. 

Kadang-kadang terfikir jugak, kenapa Allah nak bagi ujian dalam suasana genting sekarang ni?

Dalam tengah getir nak pulun for SPM?

And yes, He knows best.

Dia tak bagi ujian macam ni kalau Dia tau all of us can't go for it.

Alhamdulillah, from five cases, 2 of them strikes for goals 100%.

Dah baik. Sedih woah bila gaduh.

For one of the case, which is mine, I think I was given a penalty.

At last she spoke to me. For some cases, though it wasn't like the old we,

alhamdulillah. Better than tak cakap langsung.

Lagipun, beggars can't be picky right? :')

So three from the five cases is done. 

Berkat kesabaran and kepositifan. Haha, my language is bad. Mianhe.

And for the cases yang belum?

These are some of the tips.

PLEASE, do NOT blame each other. Kita sama ja. 

Sama kasaq sama kahaq sama degey, sama buaih sama-sama ada ego, semua ada perangai buruk vs baik, but this time, lempaq tepi ah semua tu.

Banyak lagi benda kita nak fikir dari kena fikir masalah macam ni.

Always remember that mengalah tak semestinya kalah. We grow up, we got matured kan? 

Please bermaaf-maafan.

And yes, ingat lepas solat jemaah, kiss cheeks and say what we are supposed to say, look into our friends eyes, " Uhibbuki fillah".

Ikhlaskan hati. Sampai bila kita nak macam ni? Masing-masing dah besar. Kena tau tujuan persahabatan kita.

Yes, I do, LOVE you all. 

Uhibbukunna fillah :')

And yea, this one is a good post from Safina's blog : Friendship, baru jek update time aku dok tengah menaip nih. do visit :P

Ukhuwah bukan terletak pada indahnya pertemuan, bukan terletak pada manisnya ucapan di bibir, tapi pada ingatan doa seorang hamba kepada saudaranya dalam doanya :')

Love,

Fartvxqhlovate

Fareyfar

Farzana Rosley :)

Go for what you love most

Hm, assalamualaikum wbt.

I hope everybody's doing fine.

Memandangkan kelahiran 1994 di Malaysia ni hampir keseluruhannya semakin kalut untuk menempuh SPM, aku kena jugak lah tulis post kan. Ahaha, to release my stress lepas perjumpaan waris haritu.

Well, buat masa sekarang, aku rasa result aku boleh tahan on certain subjects. 

But on the other certain subjects, buat aku rasa macam nak cekik diri sendiri especially AddMaths.

OK, cut those.

Niat mengepos adalah kerana, pada tanggal 24 Jun yang lalu ketika aku and classmates aku baru je habis belajar pasal fizik, we had a peningkepala conversations, which is about our future. Benda ni memang happen very frequent la these days. Maybe sebab sangat takut.

We talked about our ambition. And honestly, I don't find one. YET. Neither them. 

So, we asked each other about what we love most. Adila cakap nak belajar benda yang senang. Tkahwani memang dah letak dalam otak dia nak ambil engine. Iqa sama pening dengan aku. Peah cakap nak belajar kat Russia. Tapi course apa entah ( aku lupa, my bad).

So I suddeny said, aku ni had a sudden interest on being a subbers. ( tukang bagi subtitle untuk cerita2 kat TV tu..) Tapi nak jadi Korean Shows Subber. ( aku taktau lah subber tu official ka dak perkataan dia)

Yang aku tau, benda tu agak mudah, cuma it takes time la. Tambah pulak, subjek bahasa tambahan yang aku ambil bukannya Korea, it's Arabic. 

Aku tak kesah je kalau nak jadi Arabic Subber pun. Asal benda tu macam, errrr, aku minat?

When I said that, Iqa cakap, go for what you love most. 

That sentence scared me. Bukan ke zaman sekarang ramai penganggur sebab belajar ikut minat? I am that scared. And bagi pelajar macam aku yang masih takdak ambition, of course aku kena tau!

Hmmm, post ni agak tergantung. But if, ada pembaca yang tengah dok Uni and menyesal ambil course yang dia minat, please comment and bagi sikit tips macam mana nak cari cita2. Haha, or ada orang yang ambil course yang dia tak minat tapi dia hidup jaaa. So, tell me. I need cadangan. 

Thank you, 

love 

Fartvxqhlovate.

Fareyfar :)