Farley's Draft 1 #FarWrites

Okay. Let me make this thing clear. *assalamualaikum wbt by the way ahahah.

Once upon a time, I was a high school kid. Just like some people (most people I would say), I did become stupid. I was in 'love' I believe.

*trust me I've moved on, but as I was browsing through my old posts/drafts in my blogger dashboard, I actually found this poem made by me (lol how geli) but I honestly am impressed with myself.

Im so goooood man. So yeah, mind being in love with me? I might gonna write something for it. Lol jk jk. Not interested in any unless you're my crush. (again, jk!)

Trust me I have moved on. No hard feelings anymore, I even forgot how my ex looks like (haaaa lies I told, jk. he's still a friend in fb) but we're good. 

But even if him or any of my friends who used to know me and my stupid old days encounter this post, TRUST ME Im posting this poem just because I THINK IM FREAKING GOOD AT WRITING AND RHYMING.

Okay. Here it is. 

My 16 year-old self. Astagaaa gatai nohhh!

…buat dia yang pernah kuucapkan sayang

Sayang,

Pernah sekali kubilang cinta

Pada kau jejaka mutiara

Kau membalas mengucap rasa

Pada aku gadis permata

Kita kononnya ditakdir bersama

Pada usia mengenal matang

Bermimpi bersama hingga ke jinjang.

Kau jejaka manis belaka

Sayangku kau panggil

Hingga jatuh aku menggigil.

Saat kau harus pergi

Mengikut orang tua kesana ke mari

Jatuh air mataku tak pernah henti.

Lagu indah buatku kau dendang

menunjuk rasamu yang rancak bergendang

tersenyum aku dalam tangis tak hilang

engkau jejaka pandai membilang.

hilang kau tak berkhabar berita

bukan terjumpa si gadis baru

namun terlupa aku yang satu

akhirnya aku terus berharap

menanti janjimu kau ucap dulu

biar apapun terjadi kausayang aku

takkan dilupa biar tubuh kaku.

Hai jejaka penglipur lara,

sedih aku tak boleh dikira

tersenyum aku menerima berita

tersayu aku bukan kau si pencerita

hidup barumu indah belaka

teman baru keliling saja

bukan aku,

 malah sahabat turut dilupa.

Sedarlah wahai jejaka

aku ini insan biasa

andai aku masih kausuka

ucapkanlah cinta seperti dulu

katakanlah sayang selagi mampu.

bukan perlu berganti hari

setiap saat jauh sekali

sekadar bertanya khabar ku pinta

agar kutahu kaumasih setia.

sayang,

andai bukan aku untukmu

ucapkanlah tulus sejujurnya

sahabat selamanya kita bersama

itulah permulaan yang sebenarnya kita pernah bina.

buat kau yang pernah kuucapkan sayang,

hati ini tak pernah lekang

berdoa untukmu agar tak bimbang

hati yang lara Tuhan yang tahu

tersenyum megah di khalayak

menangis lemah kala bersendiri.

buat kau yang pernah kuucapkan sayang,

jujurlah padaku andai kau tak lagi suka

tinggalkanlah aku biar kita menjadi biasa

kau teman tetap sahabatku.

….buat kau yang pernah kuucapkan sayang

Sedarlah tulisku bukan sahaja

Coretanku bukan yang biasa

Untukmu kuluah dalam cerita

Agar kaufaham apa kurasa

Senyumlah sahabat yang pernah ku cinta

Aku hanyalah insan biasa,

Temanmu yang cuba mencoret rasa.

KAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH so funneh right. Okay you may throw up now >.< But you cant deny that Im good right?! Ahah told you so.

And trust me. It's an old thing. Cant even find what was the date (but it was absolutely in 2010 I could tell ya ahaha)

So yeah, thanks for reading! (if there's any.)

Love, 

@farzanarosleyyy

Fareyfar

Farzana Rosley.

Disease of writing,

Well hello and salam'alayk everyone.

It's like 10-15 days before final. And I realized I have a disease, which occurs only when the exam is near.

Like, right now? Ahaha, my exam is like around the corner (really at the edge I won't lie) but hell yeah, I feel like writing.
And currently Im actually doing my reflections (my assignment) so yeah Ive done two. So Im gonna take 5 and write this nonsense that no one would even read lol,

Im not sure why does this disease even exist, and why does it only occur to me and myself only? Or is it me that is too crazy not knowing how to manage things wisely? Aaaaaaaaaaa idek anymore.

So that's it actually. I just randomly write things, and planning to write more after this. Which includes my feelings; especially after what happened to Kris :( , living life with fellow Spartans and my withdrawal from certain people whom I see not worth standing together anymore.

I believe for the time being, that's my choice, yep I do.

And I believe I have this identity crisis but Im pretty sure of my choices,


That's it for now.
2 more reflections to go,adios.

Love,
@Farzanaley
Fareyfar
Farzanarosley
Fartvxqhlovate,
#FightingFar

...and the pain went away

So assalamualaikum wbt.

These days arent where people love to blogwalk anymore I guess..........so harap-harap ada la jugak sorang dua jawab salam tu haha or else I have to emmmm bajet hebat bukak blog sendiri and jawab salam sendiri? *okay I sound like someone who desperately needs a bog reader but NOPE, it's okay hahaha.

So. Today is the last day of class alhamdulillah. Finally! Foundation classes officially ends! But unfortunately final exam ada lagi la kan. *which I hmmm absolutely dont know what to scribble on the answer sheets next week !!

So last week, or this week's early days (fck whatever day it was) I fall sick. *which I rarely do. So when I did, it was like aghhhhh very teruk, cant even walk, no appetite, this and that and those...........

I was so thankful to my friends around me yang helped out, Kim Biel Wawa and Nana and whoever, yang stopped by at least to say get well soon ehehe.

The worst part of being ill was that I tak suka makan ubat okay. Like seriously I took an hour to finish at least two dose of medicine. Hmm.

But finally I was ehemmm kinda sorta touch when Ummi Abah sanggup turun Kuantan to visit me. *cuz memang I susah sakit kan -.-

I honestly am touched and absolutely terus rasa berdosa haha like yknow been a very ungrateful daughter. But I wasnt that bad laaa hehehe :p

Oh yeaaaa. You must would want to see what makes me almost cried. What my auntie said to me :

Hmmmm. I surely am touched. Sampai harini pun. Cant believe it la. Thanks ummi abah.

InshaAllah Ill do my best in final :')

and so.........the pain went way. Food poisoning and fever, hamdallah and biiznillah, berlalu. (actually sakit lagi 2 days after that but fever no more la hehe)

That's it. Alhamdulilah, semoga Allah redha :D

Love
FarzanaRosley
Fareyfar
Fartvxqhlovate

The interview.

Assalamualaikum.

So today I went to my previous school, SMKA Al-Irshad. I went there for one reason - to interview my English teacher, Madam Zaiton. She had taught me English since form4. However, she knew about me and my friends since form 1 or form 2 cuz we're awesome liddat hahaha. *of course, the record. we were kinda.....famous hahaha. But no harm, sebenarnya we were just being cheeky. There were only some teachers yg didnt really understand teens like us hahaha.

Okay. After melawat, I actually realised that I do, really, miss my schoolhood so much :') I know my foundation year is doing good but I cant help loving my past life - in Irshad :)

Alhamdulillah, I guess I was lucky enough to be part of Irshadian :)

Idk what's wrong w/ my lappy but I cant upload any pictureeeee >.< Penat je aku bukak nak update chaittt.

Hokay, this is the Quote of The Day, (picture edited by me). Exo Kris. :)

Love,
Farzanarosley.
Fartvxqhlovate.
Fareyfar.

I failed in some subjects in exam, but my friends passed in all. Now he is an engineer at Microsoft and I’m the owner of Microsoft. 

-Bill Gates

p/s :indahnya hidup :) i wish i can be like this. meaning, can get the right to achieve my dream. doesn't mean i have to fail slalu, memang kena perbetulkan fail tuh. seboleh-bolehnya, lulus slalu la. tapi, semoga mendapat kejayaan in future :)

-fartvxqhlovate