Farley's Draft 1 #FarWrites

Okay. Let me make this thing clear. *assalamualaikum wbt by the way ahahah.

Once upon a time, I was a high school kid. Just like some people (most people I would say), I did become stupid. I was in 'love' I believe.

*trust me I've moved on, but as I was browsing through my old posts/drafts in my blogger dashboard, I actually found this poem made by me (lol how geli) but I honestly am impressed with myself.

Im so goooood man. So yeah, mind being in love with me? I might gonna write something for it. Lol jk jk. Not interested in any unless you're my crush. (again, jk!)

Trust me I have moved on. No hard feelings anymore, I even forgot how my ex looks like (haaaa lies I told, jk. he's still a friend in fb) but we're good. 

But even if him or any of my friends who used to know me and my stupid old days encounter this post, TRUST ME Im posting this poem just because I THINK IM FREAKING GOOD AT WRITING AND RHYMING.

Okay. Here it is. 

My 16 year-old self. Astagaaa gatai nohhh!

…buat dia yang pernah kuucapkan sayang

Sayang,

Pernah sekali kubilang cinta

Pada kau jejaka mutiara

Kau membalas mengucap rasa

Pada aku gadis permata

Kita kononnya ditakdir bersama

Pada usia mengenal matang

Bermimpi bersama hingga ke jinjang.

Kau jejaka manis belaka

Sayangku kau panggil

Hingga jatuh aku menggigil.

Saat kau harus pergi

Mengikut orang tua kesana ke mari

Jatuh air mataku tak pernah henti.

Lagu indah buatku kau dendang

menunjuk rasamu yang rancak bergendang

tersenyum aku dalam tangis tak hilang

engkau jejaka pandai membilang.

hilang kau tak berkhabar berita

bukan terjumpa si gadis baru

namun terlupa aku yang satu

akhirnya aku terus berharap

menanti janjimu kau ucap dulu

biar apapun terjadi kausayang aku

takkan dilupa biar tubuh kaku.

Hai jejaka penglipur lara,

sedih aku tak boleh dikira

tersenyum aku menerima berita

tersayu aku bukan kau si pencerita

hidup barumu indah belaka

teman baru keliling saja

bukan aku,

 malah sahabat turut dilupa.

Sedarlah wahai jejaka

aku ini insan biasa

andai aku masih kausuka

ucapkanlah cinta seperti dulu

katakanlah sayang selagi mampu.

bukan perlu berganti hari

setiap saat jauh sekali

sekadar bertanya khabar ku pinta

agar kutahu kaumasih setia.

sayang,

andai bukan aku untukmu

ucapkanlah tulus sejujurnya

sahabat selamanya kita bersama

itulah permulaan yang sebenarnya kita pernah bina.

buat kau yang pernah kuucapkan sayang,

hati ini tak pernah lekang

berdoa untukmu agar tak bimbang

hati yang lara Tuhan yang tahu

tersenyum megah di khalayak

menangis lemah kala bersendiri.

buat kau yang pernah kuucapkan sayang,

jujurlah padaku andai kau tak lagi suka

tinggalkanlah aku biar kita menjadi biasa

kau teman tetap sahabatku.

….buat kau yang pernah kuucapkan sayang

Sedarlah tulisku bukan sahaja

Coretanku bukan yang biasa

Untukmu kuluah dalam cerita

Agar kaufaham apa kurasa

Senyumlah sahabat yang pernah ku cinta

Aku hanyalah insan biasa,

Temanmu yang cuba mencoret rasa.

KAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH so funneh right. Okay you may throw up now >.< But you cant deny that Im good right?! Ahah told you so.

And trust me. It's an old thing. Cant even find what was the date (but it was absolutely in 2010 I could tell ya ahaha)

So yeah, thanks for reading! (if there's any.)

Love, 

@farzanarosleyyy

Fareyfar

Farzana Rosley.

...I know my answer would never be yes

P/s: I wrote this in 2012 or 2013? However I moved it to my drafts. Only to realize that this writing is a good reminder for myself. Thus Im reposting it. 

Assalamualaikum wbt.

These days Ive been told with the news of my friends' beloved dads passing away. Al-Fatihah.

I didnt inform my Mum or any other family members but these friends of mine are good friends of mine. I mean yeah we were not really close but we once were either classmates or used to hang out together.

I made a lot of friends. I dont know if I have ever been a good one but these people are totally great friends of mine. I love the ukhuwah that we built for the pass few years that we have known each of us from high school. And the story of their family member leaving this world, somehow cant stop me from being sad. Although the level of our friendship isnt that strong but as we became friends, the ukhuwah we built exist. And the feeling of sadness somehow hit me as how it hit them, (just a little less pain compared to theirs.)

                                                       

Talking about leaving this world. I have always told myself that I should get ready. But what have I been doing exactly? I'm not sure. I don't know. I cant simply blame the surrounding or busy life that I have been facing. Im the one who chose it.

And by this time, with little tears in my eyes. I would want to remind myself, to realize that death waits for no one. Yes these friends of mine might lost their family member, leaving them. I might lose someone too one day. And people might lose me, someday.

It will eventually happen. The thing is, are we ready?

I know my answer would never be yes....

The Almighty says, "When their specified time arrives, they cannot delay it for a single hour nor can they bring it forward," (16:61)

Love,

@Farzanaley

Fartvxqhlovate.

Fareyfar.

The interview.

Assalamualaikum.

So today I went to my previous school, SMKA Al-Irshad. I went there for one reason - to interview my English teacher, Madam Zaiton. She had taught me English since form4. However, she knew about me and my friends since form 1 or form 2 cuz we're awesome liddat hahaha. *of course, the record. we were kinda.....famous hahaha. But no harm, sebenarnya we were just being cheeky. There were only some teachers yg didnt really understand teens like us hahaha.

Okay. After melawat, I actually realised that I do, really, miss my schoolhood so much :') I know my foundation year is doing good but I cant help loving my past life - in Irshad :)

Alhamdulillah, I guess I was lucky enough to be part of Irshadian :)

Idk what's wrong w/ my lappy but I cant upload any pictureeeee >.< Penat je aku bukak nak update chaittt.

Hokay, this is the Quote of The Day, (picture edited by me). Exo Kris. :)

Love,
Farzanarosley.
Fartvxqhlovate.
Fareyfar.

Agama dan Politik di Malaysia.

Assalamualaikum wbt.

Hari ni aku ada terjumpak satu blog.

She speaks naturally to her heart, not mind.

And I wonder what made her.

All her post for politics are soooo baseless.

I am mad. Tapi sabar. 

And yes,

Aku masih bawah umur untuk bersuara.

But trust me, 

for Islam, for my agama, I will not fight,

but I will speak truth.

Dekat sekolah aku pun, ramai dah mula semangat politik.

Some may say, "I hate politics"

But if it's not us to know, and to fight for our agama, who will?

And I felt kinda weird when we learnt agama deeply in school, but still cannot make the right choice. 

WHY? Faktor keturunan? Hmmm, that's their choice. I can't do anything.

Betul la. I have to agree, hati manusia, Allah yang pegang :')

And I have to agree too that there's no PERFECT POLITIC PARTY in the world. 

Tapi, ugh. ok stop. aku takut over the limit.

May I'm blessed and live well to the age of 22.

Tangan aku dah gatal nak menaip pasal politik.

Fight for agama Allah!

Takbir!

Allahuakbar!

p/s : i love green :) and white too.

FarzanaRosley.
fartvxqhlovate

Kem Nuqaba' - Part 1

Assalamualaikum w.b.t :)


OK-OK. Bukan bermaksud terus nak straight bagi tazkirah dekat orang after balik kem,
of course NOT. Hamba lemah lagik.
Tapi ada few activities yang banyak bagi pengajaran kepada the nuqaba' yang
participate the camp.


Malas cerita panjang, lemme tell ya.
Masa last day. Ada one activity yang buat aku keja naik hangin jak.
Padahal bukan salah depa pun. Aku yang over.
Bukan hot-tempered, cuma gagal mengawal emosi. :(


Hm, OK, ni masuk part main story.


Alkisah, memandangkan agak ramai naqib @ naqibah tk hadir ke kem,
maka ada banyak nasi lebihan.
So, makcik DM pun pack la dalam polystrene and letak kat teratak depan surau tuh.


Nak dijadikan cerita, *sungguh la kan Allah rancang something tu ada hikmah dia tersendiri.


Banat ( pelajar muslimah) habis awal. So, lebihan nasi tuh Banat ambil sampai habis.
Tak tinggal langsung kat Banin ( kaum Adam).


Bila masuk surau untuk sesi pembentangan,
Pengerusi pun mula lah segala-segala.
Masuk part bentang semua segala sampai lah tiba-tiba dia timbulkan satu part nih :


- Banat ada ambil nasi tak?


- Ambil....


- Ada kongsi tak dengan kawan-kawan? (since we're taught to share, )


- Yaaaaa! KONGSI!  ( confidence level tinggi, jawab KONGSI! )


- Sapa yang tk dapat langsung nasi?


( Ramai jugak Banat yang angkat tangan)


Then mula lah masuk part where dia cakap,


- Banat cakap kongsi, tapi ramai jugak yang tk dapat nasik. Ana nak tegur sikit la. Bila nak makan tu, ingat la kawan sama. Tau tak Banin takda sorang pun dapat.


*Mula suara Banat marah-marah tak puas hati.


- Apaaaa? Tadi ustazah yang bagiiiii.
- Laaaa, apa pulak, aku share jaaa.
- Ish, small matter ja pun.....!


Then dia macam tegur-tegur la kami semua an-nuqaba' nih kan. Macam terasa lah jugak. Pasal aku pun ambik nasik tuh. Tapi tak sentuh lagi pun,


He tried to tegur us. Sebab takde sorang pun Banin dapat. Tapi, macam the way he tried utk sampaikan kepada Banat, tk sampai la.
Maybe dia tktau nk bagi contoh cemana. Pasal surau terus kecoh dengan suara tak puas hati Banat.


Sampai lah, Faizah meminta untuk bercakap......


Sambungan ok. Kalau post panjang sangat, orang takmau baca!