Farley's Draft 2 - Submission week.

Disclaimer: This was written in 2015 (23/12/2025 sppecifically). Just a good write. So I don't forget :)

It's the worst when a semester comes to an end. Not because we'll miss studying, or because we're sooooo stressed out of the exams that are coming. It's only because we have a lot, and by a lot it means almost every subject's assignment submission.

Last week was the hell week for most of us (TESOLians especially). When we have Multimedia as our Minor, you know it only means sleepless nights.

Not that all of us did our job at the very last minute you know (although in my case, Yes I did). Because my friends, finished editing the videos the earliest, ended up stuck at the very last minute because our e-Learning website progress slower than snails. We had tonnes of files to be uploaded for God's sake! (I'll have to agree w/ our creative writing lecturer that it is indeed, Universiti Sangat Mundur -.-)

So yeah. What's there to write when it's all over now? We managed to submit it anyway because our lecturer (who has always shown his beastly-sarcastic side) turned out to be one of the nicest person on earth! *Trust me you would get a veeeeeeeeeeery different answer if you had asked us last semester. Well, we were glad and enjoyed ourselves when our videos were presented. 

It was hard, I tell ya. It really was. A lot of us broke down and even questioned our lives why were we asked to pick it as our Minor?! WHYYYY?! 

Skills. I guess that's why. I'm telling ya, I feel like a whole new person after I learn those skills and if you ask me right now, I could say that I am able to produce a movie! (a short one, maybe). Hahaha.

The process was all tiresome. Most of us turned to monsters. You do NOT wanna fool around us last week, because whatever you said, it wouldn't be funny when my eyes need to focus on the screen and my fingers need to stay clicking, editing and pressing any buttons I could, in order to give our best shot.

AGAIN! Why do I write?! (I keep going off track hahaha). 

It's because it's all over now. :) 

So to anyone out there, who's having a really hard time doing whatever things right now, don't worry because it will soon be over. (For as long as the thing you're doing is worth it for your future, I assure you, inshaAllah, there's gain afterwards.)

"Perfer et obdura dolor hic tibi proterit olim."

The meaning is more or less, as stated in the picture below.

I guess that's all from me :)

Thanks for reading. I hope I'll write more in 2016. InshaAllah.

Love,
Farzana Rosley.
Fareyfar.
Fartvxqhlovate.
 ☺Lo

Farley's Draft 1 #FarWrites

Okay. Let me make this thing clear. *assalamualaikum wbt by the way ahahah.

Once upon a time, I was a high school kid. Just like some people (most people I would say), I did become stupid. I was in 'love' I believe.

*trust me I've moved on, but as I was browsing through my old posts/drafts in my blogger dashboard, I actually found this poem made by me (lol how geli) but I honestly am impressed with myself.

Im so goooood man. So yeah, mind being in love with me? I might gonna write something for it. Lol jk jk. Not interested in any unless you're my crush. (again, jk!)

Trust me I have moved on. No hard feelings anymore, I even forgot how my ex looks like (haaaa lies I told, jk. he's still a friend in fb) but we're good. 

But even if him or any of my friends who used to know me and my stupid old days encounter this post, TRUST ME Im posting this poem just because I THINK IM FREAKING GOOD AT WRITING AND RHYMING.

Okay. Here it is. 

My 16 year-old self. Astagaaa gatai nohhh!

…buat dia yang pernah kuucapkan sayang

Sayang,

Pernah sekali kubilang cinta

Pada kau jejaka mutiara

Kau membalas mengucap rasa

Pada aku gadis permata

Kita kononnya ditakdir bersama

Pada usia mengenal matang

Bermimpi bersama hingga ke jinjang.

Kau jejaka manis belaka

Sayangku kau panggil

Hingga jatuh aku menggigil.

Saat kau harus pergi

Mengikut orang tua kesana ke mari

Jatuh air mataku tak pernah henti.

Lagu indah buatku kau dendang

menunjuk rasamu yang rancak bergendang

tersenyum aku dalam tangis tak hilang

engkau jejaka pandai membilang.

hilang kau tak berkhabar berita

bukan terjumpa si gadis baru

namun terlupa aku yang satu

akhirnya aku terus berharap

menanti janjimu kau ucap dulu

biar apapun terjadi kausayang aku

takkan dilupa biar tubuh kaku.

Hai jejaka penglipur lara,

sedih aku tak boleh dikira

tersenyum aku menerima berita

tersayu aku bukan kau si pencerita

hidup barumu indah belaka

teman baru keliling saja

bukan aku,

 malah sahabat turut dilupa.

Sedarlah wahai jejaka

aku ini insan biasa

andai aku masih kausuka

ucapkanlah cinta seperti dulu

katakanlah sayang selagi mampu.

bukan perlu berganti hari

setiap saat jauh sekali

sekadar bertanya khabar ku pinta

agar kutahu kaumasih setia.

sayang,

andai bukan aku untukmu

ucapkanlah tulus sejujurnya

sahabat selamanya kita bersama

itulah permulaan yang sebenarnya kita pernah bina.

buat kau yang pernah kuucapkan sayang,

hati ini tak pernah lekang

berdoa untukmu agar tak bimbang

hati yang lara Tuhan yang tahu

tersenyum megah di khalayak

menangis lemah kala bersendiri.

buat kau yang pernah kuucapkan sayang,

jujurlah padaku andai kau tak lagi suka

tinggalkanlah aku biar kita menjadi biasa

kau teman tetap sahabatku.

….buat kau yang pernah kuucapkan sayang

Sedarlah tulisku bukan sahaja

Coretanku bukan yang biasa

Untukmu kuluah dalam cerita

Agar kaufaham apa kurasa

Senyumlah sahabat yang pernah ku cinta

Aku hanyalah insan biasa,

Temanmu yang cuba mencoret rasa.

KAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH so funneh right. Okay you may throw up now >.< But you cant deny that Im good right?! Ahah told you so.

And trust me. It's an old thing. Cant even find what was the date (but it was absolutely in 2010 I could tell ya ahaha)

So yeah, thanks for reading! (if there's any.)

Love, 

@farzanarosleyyy

Fareyfar

Farzana Rosley.

...of judging and being judged

Assalamualaikum wbt and hello everyone.

After scrolling a lot of shared posts on Facebook, I came across a video made by a Youtuber about people and their judgements.

The content of the video about our world today is so real; it got me into tears by the end of it. I'm not saying that I'm all nice or I've never judged people for the past 21 years I'm living. All I'm saying is that, how come some of us could simply say words without noticing the other person's feelings?

How come that when we hate a certain figure, we plainly go all saint and comment on their Instagram/Twitter/Facebook or all other social sites harshly? Who gave us the green light to simply do all of those things to them as if they have no feelings at all?

I'm not trying to preach but this matter is happening today and basically, the common act where we should be nice to people isn't common anymore. 

In Malaysia especially, a lot of these 'keyboard warriors' are really proud whenever they post something to embarrass people and include 'make this VIRAL!' as the title. Some of them aren't even true, and you just go spreading rumors not knowing if the source is reliable enough.

Okay. Back to the video, click >>HERE<< it is if you feel like watching it. The title of the video is --> YOU LOOK DISGUSTING . Made by the Youtuber with the Youtube account named My Pale Skin.

You can also watch it here. 

The lady in the video made a social experiment and yes, all the comments said to her are real! They're not made up!

Now. I am so pissed off with how society treats each other. We are human-beings. We love things nice. We like things pretty. We adore things perfect. Admit it.

When someone goes out of their house, with no make up, looking all hideous with some scars or acnes on their faces, showing their original looks, some of us would go; how come she doesn't take care of herself?; how could she carelessly go out of the house like that?

However, when she put all the make up and cover all the flaws on her face, you'd go; OH! You shouldn't! Be proud of yourself~ ; You're so fake. 

What do you really want HUMAN? Why don't you go drown yourselves or you should just don't give a d*mn with what people want to do with their looks? 

Urghhhh.

Honestly (for someone who've been applying some make-ups), we don't wear it because we care how you see us. Personally, I wear em because it made me feel good. It made me feel pretty. There're also some days when I don't apply any and it doesn't mean because I don't care about how I look at all. It just happened to be one of the days where I want my skin to breathe or I don't feel like putting any, just because!

The point here is, we should just let people do what they want.

We are all human-beings. We can't run from having the first bad impression of someone. However, it's what we think afterwards would define who we are. Whether we want to keep judging a person based on their looks or we would want to correct ourselves and just think nicely of that person.

Okay. I guess that's it for my mixed-emotions post of the day.  

To quote one of my favourite figure, Ellen DeGeneres; "Be kind to one another."

Spread kindness, love and positivity. (although I'm not really sure that I'm positive enough in this post >.<)

Thanks for reading!

Love,

Fartvxqhlovate.
Farzanaley.
Farzana Rosley.

Book Review #1: Being Friends with Boys - Terra Elan McVoy by Farzanaley

Assalamualaikum wbt and hello thereeee :D

It's been a while since I wrote my last post (and I guess this sounds very annoying because Ive been using the exact same sentence to start my post). Well hello, whatever. I guess Im pretty excited to write today. First, obviously because it's been a while. Secondly, hey, Ive got a thing to talk about! Woohooo. Well it's not like I didnt have anything to talk about before but I just did not put the effort to even write one because Im not sure whether my post would be beneficial or just another pose of me rambling things.

So yeah. Let's get things started. I'm a beginner at these things so please tell me if there's some that I do wrong ;3 One more thing, I'm the type of person who would sometimes tell too much till you kinda get the spoiler and you need not read the novel anymore~ BUT, I promise I won't do it by the end of this post. Trust me :D

One more thing, writing a book review has always been an idea that my friends put into my head. It's just that I was lazy.......... so yeah, while now Im making effort, you better read, people! Ahah XD

Book Review #1: Being Friends with Boys - Terra Elan McVoy

Hahaha this is the photo I took and posted it on my Instagram xP

I'm not pretty much sure on how to start (told ya Im new), but surely I would give you the summary written at the back of the book :)

"Charlotte and Oliver have been friends forever. She knows that he, Abe and Trip consider her to be one of the gang, and she likes it that way. She likes being the friend who keeps them all together. Likes offering a girl's perspective on their love lives. Likes being the behind-the-scenes wordsmith who writes all the lyrics for the boys' band. Char has a house full of stepsisters and a past full of backstabbling (female) ex-best friends, so for her, being friends with boys is refreshingly drama-free... until it isn't anymore.

When a new boy enters the scene and makes Char feel like, well, a total girl... and two of her other friends have a falling out that may or may not be related to one of them deciding he possibly wants to be more than friends with Char... being friends with all these boys suddenly becomes a lot more complicated."

And that, my friends, is what written at the back of the book. 

Honestly, the moment I finished the book, I would say, hell no the summary is confusing because truthfully, there isn't only one new guy that entered the scene after Trip decided to leave the band they're in, but two of them.

Yes, one of them, is Fabian - the hot new guy in band. He's there, nice and made things real awkward that Char had to control and act cool all the time he was there. We could all tell that he's the new guy that made Char swoon like a girl.

However, the new guy that made one of her guy friends' said wanted to be "more than friends" with Char was Benji. Here comes Benji, another new guy who was always there for her to rescue her failing 20 Cen.(subject). He was not in the band, but he was there with Char.

The start was diff with these two. The way I explained it made it sound like it's just a love story. WAIT, NO. Remember the title? "being friends with boys", How did it all start anyway? 

So, let's all move on to Char. 

Char is the girl in the story, she's the one who's being friends with all these boys in the story. It's not like she hates girls, she used to have one, Lish. But not sure how things happened when they were suddenly not friends anymore.

And it's not like she had a terrible life either. One might say that she lives in a broken family because her parents are divorced, but honestly, her stepmom, Hannah wasn't all bad either. She isn't a modern Cinderella, she got two terrific stepsisters (Gretchen and Darcy) and they were always there when Jill (her real sister) wasn't there.

I honestly like this novel for its purity. The author, Terra wan't trying to make Char sounded pathetic at all. She does have the inner side of girly things in her, despite her spending most of the time with her boy friends, she does want to put some make up when she went out with Fabian, and dress up prettily (with some limits still since she never really dress up).

So Im not sure how I should end this hahaha.

Im afraid, if I talk more, Im gonna spill everything hahaha. However, lemme give tell you what occured in my head when I was reading through it.

Since she surely will end up with someone too, I put (or would honestly call it as rate) these guys on my list:

1. Fabian (because for God's sake, she dressed up for him!)

2. Benji (she's been hanging out with him, he's nice, funny and she's all comfortable with him and his jokes. He also lends her his notes and they helped her with her study!)

3. Oliver (just because. well yknow, Oliver and her has been friends for like years. they're close! so, I guess, who knows? It might be the one who's always there. It's just Char or even Oliver himself can't see it that they might are meant for each other. They might be more than just friends?)

4. Trip (just the same reason why I would rate Oliver. but I put him last because he left the band. so... I wasnt sure. however, she's all comfortable with him. they exchange opinions/stories; on life rather than study in one notebook that only they read during class. she thought about him a lot is the reason I put him in this rating list.)

And of course, the rating list I made was just my PERSONAL OPINION. I repeat, they're all personal as I read through the story and it didn't end as how I rate it at all. Im all in with Benji because he's nice but well, you've gotta read it man! Hahaha

It's all good. Not that I don't like this kind of genre, it's just that I rarely picked one. So now that I have finally read one, I think it would be good to read a lot more on any kinds of genres. 

So I believe, there goes my book review. My first book review, by Terra Elan McAvoy, Being Friends With Boys.

I don't like rating books. They're good on their own. The beauty of a story is subjective. Therefore, have fun reading! :D It's not a heavy story, rather a light and relaxing one. :)

Thank you,

Love,

@Farzanaley

Farvxqhlovate.

Farzana Rosley.