Tuesday, February 18, 2014


Assalamualaikum wbt. Hello everyone^^

Ok, here's a thing. Last Sunday my sister asked me to go and listen to Dr. Danial Zainal Abidin's talk. It's a weekly thing, and he just started with the first surah of the holy Quraan, ummul kitab Al-Fatihah.

At first, I couldn't deny how reluctant I was and I kept giving excuses as long as I dont have to go to the class (obviously because I had to register my second semester in USM already so I was kinda lazy). Well in short, I ended up going after my sister pursued me and promised to help unpacking my stuff (which she did anyway).

Plus, I know I kinda need something for the inside too, since Ive been doing a lot of 'lagho' things these days T_T yknow, makanan rohani :)

So the first day I went was good. And instead of keeping it to myself, I decided to share it here, on my blog. I should start writing something that is not only beneficial for me, but some other people. I just hope it would. :)

Somehow, the first lesson is something that I have learnt, but it's okay since Im going to share it anyway!

The first lesson was about the first sentence of the Quraan, which is "Bismillahirrahmanirrahim." (shortly called Basmallah).

1. It starts with 'bi' which brings the meaning 'dengan'. (in Arabic, ayat ni dikira tergantung sebab we suddenly start a sentence dengan perkataan 'bi = dengan'. Sebab it says ; Bismi = Dengan nama. *it's pretty weird, however a very unique introduction. 

2. This brings a conclusion that was drawn by Sheikh Hamka which sounds like this,

 "Penggunaan perkataan 'dengan' di permulaan ayat shows that as we recite the sentence in whatever things we are doing, we do it for the sake of Allah. 

i.e; Basmallah before makan (Im eating this lillah), Basmallah before tidoq (Im sleeping lillah). *THIS, in short shows that reading Basmallah is a way in making our simple daily routine becoming our daily ibadah. U gemme? :D

3. Ar-Rahman (Maha Pemurah) *one of asma ul-husna :)
  • sifat ar-Rahman ni umum
  • Allah is nice to everyone, despite our differences in religions and races
This is shown in one of ayatul Quran, "Allah tidak akan menzalimi makhluk-Nya walaupun sedikit." Nampak tak Allah tu Maha Adil? :)

4. Ar-Rahim (Maha Penyayang) *also one of asma ul-husna :)
  • sifat ar-Rahim pulak khas (khusus)
  • Allah sayang hamba-Nya yang beriman.
5. In solat, there are a lot of opinions from great sheikhs on the way we read Basmallah. Do we have to read it loudly or do we have to read it slowly? (The Imam especially). Therefore, there's a lot to share just for this part :3

Dr. Bilal Philips (salah seorang ulama', pakar agama if Im not mistaken) said that Sejarah Islam proves that ONCE, in Mekah; depan Kaabah, they prayed for FOUR times at every solat. Kenapa 4 times? Sebab these people pray ikut their Mazhab punya Imam. 

THIS, showed that masa tu maybe kelemahan pemerintah. But gladly, now alhamdulillah we only pray once for every solat time kan :) Yelah,

" Innamal mukminuunal ikhwah." - Sesungguhnya orang beriman (Islam) itu bersaudara! :)

6. Sebelum baca Basmallah, disunatkan baca ayat untuk mintak perlindungan :

"A'uzubillahi minassyaitonirrojim." (Isti'azah.)

Wallahu'alam bissowab :) Setakat ni ja mampu share berdasarkan notes that I wrote. InshaAllah I will share more when I get more^^

Yg silap lemah tu datang dari kelemahan beta sendiri :3

Farzana Rosley
Fartvxqhlovate :)

Thursday, February 6, 2014

...to continue isn't a choice


At times like this, when I feel like writing is when I feel down.

Yes. The result came out today. But just the provisional ones, to show either we passed the subjects we took, or otherwise.
And alhamdulillah. I passed it all. By next week we will all know the full result, which I choose not to know.

It's not the matter that I can't accept my result after all I have been through my first semester of my degree. It's just that I can't accept no matter how good or bad it is, for what I have been, for the first semester.

This ain't Farzana. This ain't the old me. I am, totally disappointed for what I have been throughout the semester.
I can't lie to myself. I know how worse I have became compared to my old self during my foundation year. 

At times like this, I can only think of giving up. But I know I cant. My family doesnt give up on me. God doesn't. Then why should I?

The entire holiday, I keep telling myself that I should change, for better to deserve something good. To live such a great life, God has granted us, I should do better. 

I know I have never forgotten the wise saying by Saidina Ali that if a person today is worse that his yesterday, he is a person that has been beguiled (terpedaya) of his life.

I should have made myself prepared for the new semester. I have made my mind. To continue going to usrah. Tho I have been there only once. (sorry kak usrah. I expect too much of myself. And be active in unnecessary things.)

I will do my best to start being better. And join things Im only capable of doing. Being MPD already, I have no choice but to finish it till the end. 

Continue the progress I have made isn't a choice. It's a fate that God has put me into place. And my only choice that I can pick is to do it well. Himnae, Farzana.

All the best, Farzana! Allahu ma'ana. Prioritize, focus and change for better. Tajdid niat. Robbi yassir walaa tu'assir.

- Fartvxqhlovate