Friday, December 19, 2014
Once upon a time, I was a high school kid. Just like some people (most people I would say), I did become
*trust me I've moved on, but as I was browsing through my old posts/drafts in my blogger dashboard, I actually found this poem made by me (lol how geli) but I honestly am impressed with myself.
Im so goooood man. So yeah, mind being in love with me? I might gonna write something for it. Lol jk jk. Not interested in any unless you're my crush. (again, jk!)
Trust me I have moved on. No hard feelings anymore, I even forgot how my ex looks like (haaaa lies I told, jk. he's still a friend in fb) but we're good.
But even if him or any of my friends who used to know me and my stupid old days encounter this post, TRUST ME Im posting this poem just because I THINK IM FREAKING GOOD AT WRITING AND RHYMING.
Okay. Here it is.
KAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH so funneh right. Okay you may throw up now >.< But you cant deny that Im good right?! Ahah told you so.
And trust me. It's an old thing. Cant even find what was the date (but it was absolutely in 2010 I could tell ya ahaha)
So yeah, thanks for reading! (if there's any.)
Wednesday, October 15, 2014
Well today I wanna something. Not that I wanna brag, but I think it's something congratulate myself.
Ever since I entered high school, honestly I never went onto stage because of my examination result.
If my name was called onto the stage, it was either an award for winning the poem recitation other co-curricular achievements.
During my PMR result, I got 7a's so surely I just have to go pick my result at class counters. As for SPM, hahahaha I wouldnt even expect my name to be called. I just waited for the straight A names to finish being called and definitely go straight to my class' counter.
Im not saying Im smart or good enough, but Im really grateful to be given the chance to represent my batch and go onto the stage.
|Me on stage heeee :) With our PPIP's Dean. Uncle's friend, Prof Rashid.|
It was our Pusat Pengajian's Hari Guru event last Tuesday (yesterday as I was writing) that they call out names and we got to go on stage and take the certificate as the batch representative.
|:) alhamdulillah. *baju ni pakai masa 1st day in USM heee. #deep la konon padahal lepas ambil gambar baru sedar :3|
Seriously, Im really happy and grateful. And I wouldn't say it's a great achievement. If it wasnt for His help, I wouldnt be there on stage. If it wasnt for Him to allow it to happen, I wont get to experience this great thing.
And to be honest, last semester's examination wasnt fully on papers. Almost half of them were 100% coursework subjects which requires us to work in groups. Therefore, I would credit to my fellow groupmates in any subject I managed to score. I would also like to thank my friends for helping me out whenever I was in dazed and stressful. Beta blur, kalian banyak guide. Thank you. Thankyou umi abah atas iringan doa.
|Alhamdulillah. Moh maintain result ye! #partypeople ! WORK HARD PLAY HARD|
Alhamdulillah. Im grateful. And one thing about achieving something is that we have to realise that an award could also be a test. Always return to Him and be grateful. Thank you Allah.
I wont expect a lot from me this semester. I will try and do my best as usual inshaAllah. I dont want to be the top-scorer or best-student but all I want is to do the best out of me and maintain my result. Apapun, in the end, serahkan segala keputusan to Him. Hamba tawakkal dan redha. Permudahkanlah the rest of our journey here in USM inshaAllah.
|Terima kasih manusia Hilton banyak tolong, selalu gerak bangun pagi dan sebagainya ahahaha :3|
Moga Allah redha. Alhamdulillah :') #bepositive #begrateful #fightingfar :)
Tuesday, July 22, 2014
So today I just finished reading the book Hidden by Marianne Curley.
It's a breathtaking book, where I couldn't stop but I had to because of some other things to be done. However, Im gonna write a review today!
My first review was ok for me but considering the fact that I have learnt Basic Literature, I would improve my review posts from time to time okay? :) Therefore, I would be glad if there's anyone who would to share with me tips and ways of writing a good one.
As for me, I'll keep writing from my point of view - basically what I felt throughout the reading so I would give you the feeling of excitement to read the book yourself! :D
Hidden is a beautifully-written novel about angels that come from Avena. The way the author explained the characters and places actually helped me a lot in imagining the places beautifully, making it a good book to be read. You dont want to go buy a book that is simply written right?
|The one I uploaded on my Instagram and Tumblr xD|
Ahah, here comes the Literature thingy but I would write it in a simple way; which would tell that literature is pretty :)
The author writes the story from two people's Point Of View.
1. The main character - Ebony Hawkins.
2. Jordan Blake.
These two characters are very important as portrayed by the author.
If it wasn't for Jordan's meeting with Ebony, a spark of light would never occur and Nathaneal and the Dark King would not start doing their finding of this "Hidden" person.
Just like Ebony and Jordan, Nathaneal and Dark King are both important in these story. The journey would never be there if it was not for their existence.
Next, Im gonna go with the storyline. It was all mysterious but pretty and beautiful at the same time when the main character, Ebony described her life.
The life she was living was quite perfect, except that her parents were overprotective. Little did she know that there was a story behind it and the fact that she was not her parents' real daughter but rather adopted.
And before she could hear the whole truth about herself, her parents went missing in a fire that had happened at their house. Not they're dead, but MISSING!
That's when the whole confusion and journey started. Ebony needs to find the truth while searching for her missing parents since their bodies weren't found at the place of incident. A few changes happened to her body, which not only make her need to find who is she, but also WHAT is she?
Here comes the part of my opinion :)
The person who suggested this book was my friend, Shamin. And I never thought it would be a sequel novel. However, the fact that it is a sequel did not make me feel sad at all but rather liking it. I want to know more, learn more about these angels and understand their world.
Reading Hidden brought me to another world just like how I used to read Harry Potter where wizard world was where I entered. Not saying Hidden is comparable to Harry Potter, it's just that this book comes from its own world, nicely written by Marianne Curley so that we could learn from the Avena and the Angels within this world.
Therefore, as I told you before, Im never gonna rate a book for their own beauty. But I believe this book worth a read and I did not waste the splendid of time I spent to read it.
I just need to get my hands on Broken! (the sequel I mean). Have fun reading! :)
Monday, July 21, 2014
This post is basically what Im feeling about what is going to happen during our batch reunion. It happened twice so Im not sure whether the next one will turn out the same but I surely do feel quite irritated with what happened compared to what is supposed to be happening.
1. The number of people.
I expected a reunion should include many people. And not that I can blame those who did not want to attend, but not making a effort to go to one makes some people tend not to go to. And yes, I dont feel like going this year's reunion too. (Which means it will make a group of my friends won't go too.)
2. The reuniting session.
The thing that always goes wrong in a reunion party is that we do not reunite at all? Most people sit with their old gang whom they actually meet up occasionally so there's no perfect reunion actually occurred.
When there's a reunion, we reunite! That's how it's supposed to be. Talk with everyone. Better yet, make a huge circle and start telling what is going on with our lives. Is that hard? You speak to people you last met a long time ago, fairly. Not only to your group of people.
It's not like I have anyone to blame about this since I was the ones who organized one. And pretty much disappointed with the response and cooperation. But what I am questioning is, why make one when we don't actually reunite at all? Or is it just me who's feeling this way?
Pffft. Years passed, and the bond of the batch mates does not seem to be tighter but pretty much loosening.
Well Im sorry if this is harsh but exactly what I am feeling zzzzz.
Wednesday, July 16, 2014
It's been a while since I wrote my last post (and I guess this sounds very annoying because Ive been using the exact same sentence to start my post). Well hello, whatever. I guess Im pretty excited to write today. First, obviously because it's been a while. Secondly, hey, Ive got a thing to talk about! Woohooo. Well it's not like I didnt have anything to talk about before but I just did not put the effort to even write one because Im not sure whether my post would be beneficial or just another pose of me rambling things.
So yeah. Let's get things started. I'm a beginner at these things so please tell me if there's some that I do wrong ;3 One more thing, I'm the type of person who would sometimes tell too much till you kinda get the spoiler and you need not read the novel anymore~ BUT, I promise I won't do it by the end of this post. Trust me :D
One more thing, writing a book review has always been an idea that my friends put into my head. It's just that I was lazy.......... so yeah, while now Im making effort, you better read, people! Ahah XD
|Hahaha this is the photo I took and posted it on my Instagram xP|
Wednesday, May 28, 2014
It's like 10-15 days before final. And I realized I have a disease, which occurs only when the exam is near.
Like, right now? Ahaha, my exam is like around the corner (really at the edge I won't lie) but hell yeah, I feel like writing.
And currently Im actually doing my reflections (my assignment) so yeah Ive done two. So Im gonna take 5 and write this nonsense that no one would even read lol,
Im not sure why does this disease even exist, and why does it only occur to me and myself only? Or is it me that is too crazy not knowing how to manage things wisely? Aaaaaaaaaaa idek anymore.
So that's it actually. I just randomly write things, and planning to write more after this. Which includes my feelings; especially after what happened to Kris :( , living life with fellow Spartans and my withdrawal from certain people whom I see not worth standing together anymore.
I believe for the time being, that's my choice, yep I do.
And I believe I have this identity crisis but Im pretty sure of my choices,
That's it for now.
2 more reflections to go,adios.
Tuesday, February 18, 2014
- sifat ar-Rahman ni umum.
- Allah is nice to everyone, despite our differences in religions and races
- sifat ar-Rahim pulak khas (khusus)
- Allah sayang hamba-Nya yang beriman.
Thursday, February 6, 2014
At times like this, when I feel like writing is when I feel down.
Yes. The result came out today. But just the provisional ones, to show either we passed the subjects we took, or otherwise.
And alhamdulillah. I passed it all. By next week we will all know the full result, which I choose not to know.
It's not the matter that I can't accept my result after all I have been through my first semester of my degree. It's just that I can't accept no matter how good or bad it is, for what I have been, for the first semester.
This ain't Farzana. This ain't the old me. I am, totally disappointed for what I have been throughout the semester.
I can't lie to myself. I know how worse I have became compared to my old self during my foundation year.
At times like this, I can only think of giving up. But I know I cant. My family doesnt give up on me. God doesn't. Then why should I?
The entire holiday, I keep telling myself that I should change, for better to deserve something good. To live such a great life, God has granted us, I should do better.
I know I have never forgotten the wise saying by Saidina Ali that if a person today is worse that his yesterday, he is a person that has been beguiled (terpedaya) of his life.
I should have made myself prepared for the new semester. I have made my mind. To continue going to usrah. Tho I have been there only once. (sorry kak usrah. I expect too much of myself. And be active in unnecessary things.)
I will do my best to start being better. And join things Im only capable of doing. Being MPD already, I have no choice but to finish it till the end.
Continue the progress I have made isn't a choice. It's a fate that God has put me into place. And my only choice that I can pick is to do it well. Himnae, Farzana.
All the best, Farzana! Allahu ma'ana. Prioritize, focus and change for better. Tajdid niat. Robbi yassir walaa tu'assir.
Thursday, January 9, 2014
Wednesday, January 8, 2014
|*pic is credit on google. and tumblr I guess.|